When I said I was going to be back with a cheerier post, by cheerier I meant talking about clothes. Because that's a happier topic right?

Clothes is actually a massive distraction for me and something to focus on but it's just a shame I can't wear my outfits out right now, the daily walk will have to do! 

For Christmas I received a pair of flares from Topshop which I had been eyeing up for ages, they ended up being too long for me (they looked so funny) so we ordered a shorter pair and they fit a treat! Since buying my black flares back last year, I have become a massive convert and I think they might be my new favourite style of jean. 

I don't know what it is about them specifically that I love but I think it's just that they make any outfit look instantly 'cool'. (take from that what you will because I don't think I'm cool haha) But they change a plain t-shirt and skinny jeans look to a whole new level. A flare is like the extra bit of spice in a curry, the guapacha timing in a cha-cha that makes your dance go from a 7 to a 10 or the bridge in Driver's Licence by Olivia Rodrigo. 

So you may have seen these two looks on my Instagram (@bethmpilcher) but I wanted to share them on here too! 

I think some people could over-think styling flares, maybe because they are another clothing item that has come back around again from the 70s and you wonder how to make them current to now. But I've worn them with practically everything in my wardrobe and I'm so here for the 70s vibes. 

Especially with my 'Last Christmas' inspired leopard print coat! 

You will always find me wearing a pop of colour. Even with an all black outfit, I'll probably have my yellow earrings in. So these two outfits that I'm about to share might be quite out there for some but I personally love them. And like I said, they are quite casual too; great for walks and layers can be added. 

Jeans- Topshop

Checked coat- Jack Wills

Cream turtle neck- Bershka

Grey sweatshirt- Bershka 

Trainers- Adidas

Chain necklace- Zara

Bethan xx

Happy new year everyone! I know we are practically half way through January but this is my first blog post of the year, better late than never. 

It kind of feels wrong saying it though. I'm normally such a positive person, I get so excited for new year and create goals to achieve but currently, this year doesn't feel any different to the last. As much as we all would have jumped for joy, the clock struck midnight and sadly the world wasn't back to 'normal'. 

Already before the new year I was seeing people either raring to go and so excited for a fresh start but then on the other hand, there were the same amount of people that were resentful to make any plans for the new year and feeling just generally 'meh'. I was in that category.

Feeling apprehensive also because of the thought of having to do remote learning for the first two weeks back at school didn't make things any easier. And being in tier 4! 

Then lockdown hit. And I found out I'd be learning remotely for a lot longer.

I think it was something we all saw coming but it was still a massive shock (definitely the right thing to have happened!). The memories of last march came flooding back. I had major deja vu! 

In my opinion and speaking to a lot of people, the lockdown definitely feels worse this time. The mix of winter and dark evenings is not my favourite time of year anyway, and now not even being able to leave your house. 

I suppose I just wanted to ask if you were okay? I didn't want to make all of this post negative as that is not what anyone wants to read but it's also important to know that it's okay to not be okay, especially in these times. 

I'm a bit up and down at the moment which is completely normal. I'm so glad I have the focus of school but sometimes that makes things more stressful as you have to be 'on the ball' and productive every day otherwise you'll fall behind. And some days I just want to do nothing which is hard when you have lessons at 9am! 

The first lockdown was so different for me as I had nothing to do, a few weeks of work to do at the start and then nothing. So I had so much time on my hands and I could do whatever I liked. I really embraced the freedom and looking back on it now, I learnt so much and wouldn't change anything. 

This time is a little different! 

Remote learning is quite difficult for me as it's so different from being at Sixth Form with your friends and in a learning environment, sometimes it gets very lonely sitting at my desk in my bedroom or at the dining room table and I'm the type of person that thrives off being around other people. Especially creativity wise, trying to do practical photography at home is just not the same! But I know I'm not alone in this and a lot of people feel like I do. 

And online lessons are very scary. I don't like them at all because for some reason I become nervous to speak over Teams, whereas when I'm in school, I'm the opposite! We are only in  week 2 though so hopefully it will get better. 

Because we've already been through it before, we know what it's like but I suppose that makes it even harder. We already know the dread of everyday feeling the same and the same wondering feeling of what else can we do inside that we haven't done before. 

Putting pressure on ourselves to be productive all the time and create the biggest to-do lists isn't the right way to go about it. It never ends well! (For me anyway!) 

You don't have to be up exercising at the crack of dawn if you don't want to. You don't have to get out of bed if some days you don't feel like it. Or you don't even have to get on the baking trend again if you can't face another banana bread.

At the moment things feel pretty never ending but thank god for the vaccines so we can see the tiniest bit of light at the end of the tunnel.

It's important to take each day as it comes and not get too het up if some days are a complete write off. *note to self*

Some days will be good and some days will be bad. Lockdown life, eh?

Who knows what this year will hold. We're only 13 days into it (has it really only been 13 days?) and quite a lot has happened in such a short space of time that's overwhelming for anyone, whether you're the 'productive and act like everything's okay' type or not. But hopefully we'll get there and I just can't wait for the moment where I can squeeze everyone I know for a little too long.

So I'm sending so much love to you all and I hope that you're okay. 

I'll be back with much more cheerier posts soon! 

Bethan xx

Well I'm not joking when I say I really don't know where to start. It's been quite a year to say the least. And forgive me before I say the most cliche sentence ever...but I truly feel like I've blinked and it's nearly over. Thank the lord. It's also felt weirdly long too which makes no sense! But nor does 2020.

I wouldn't like to look back at this year and paint it in a completely negative light. There are so many things that have happened that have brought sadness, pain and feelings of helplessness. But there are always positives to be found. 

I'm a huge believer in the saying 'everything happens for a reason' but I hit a brick wall back in March when it felt like we were tumbling down a hill not being able to catch a breath, and I couldn't seem to think of a reason as to why the whole world was going through a nightmare.

I'm so lucky that I was never affected badly throughout the year but my heart goes out to any of you who were or also found bits difficult, sending so much love.

I thought I would write a list of my favourite moments of 2020 and I really encourage you to do the same. I am always looking back at photos and videos, probably more than I care to admit especially this year as I dreamt of previous summer holidays and time spent with my loved ones. This year isn't what we hoped or expected at all but in the words of one of my favourite wizards, Albus Dumbledore, 'Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light'.

1. Our last family get together before Lockdown

I think it was on the first of March? We had a slight idea about COVID and I was slightly worried about it but no way did I think everything would happen like it did. I always think I'm lucky to have such a big and amazing family but it made me realise how much I did take it for granted. Words can't describe how excited I am for us all to be in the same room again and to give squeezes bigger than life itself.

2. Eating dinner in the rain

Sounds weird but it's true. When we were allowed people in the garden but not inside, we had some family over for dinner and it chucked it down with rain! Typical. But nothing was going to stop us staying outside. I will always always remember that evening. It's so strange how these times makes us do things we wouldn't have done previously, like we would have rushed inside but staying out in the rain was even more fun. 

3. Beach days

I'm so grateful that we live by the sea. Listening to the calmness of the waves and just feeling a little bit like I was back in Portugal.

4. Picnics in the woods

This year we discovered 'Captain's Wood', not too far from where we live and it's like a whole other world. Whenever we went, we barely saw a soul. I went early morning to do a photo shoot back in October and we managed to see the most beautiful deer! So glad I managed to capture them.

5. Friends

I couldn't have got through this year without them! I made the best memories with Holly (one of my best friends) when Lockdown restrictions were lifted; evenings on the beach with pizza was one of my favourites. 2020 has really made me so much closer to people and I couldn't be more grateful.

6. A day in Great Yarmouth and Joyland

As we weren't going on holiday this year, we decided to have a week of days out with my auntie, uncle and cousin. We all made some of the best memories but I think my favourite day was when we went back to Great Yarmouth, where we used to spend our holidays when we were little. We had a beach picnic and went to Joyland (a tiny theme park) in the evening and there was hardly anyone there so we didn't have to queue for any ride! 

7. GCSE results day 

After finishing school back in March and having my exams cancelled, I was so worried to get my results especially the week before with the scandal of the a-level results. Me, my mum and sister went for an early morning swim in the sea to calm my nerves before my appointment to collect them but I was so so happy with them and proud of what we'd all achieved. A day of good emotions.

8. Starting Sixth Form

You can read more about it here on my blog but something I was also terrified for for weeks before but I'm having the best time and have met some of the loveliest people. 

9. Turning 17

Young and sweet onlyyyy....! With all the restrictions, I still managed to have such a lovely day and I know I was lucky with the circumstances at that time. My favourite people outside celebrating (safely) all evening was more than enough for me.

10. Strictly Come Dancing

If you know me, you know how much I love strictly! I was so worried that it wouldn't go ahead this year so I'm so grateful for all the sacrifices everyone made for it to still bring some sparkly magic to my weekend. I looked forward to it every week and now I don't know what I'm going to do on my Saturday evenings anymore. Already having withdrawal symptoms!!

Wishing you all a magical Christmas and sending so much love to everyone right now at such a difficult time. Hopefully 2021 will be a bit brighter. 

Bethan xx

Being asked to pick between Last Christmas and All I want for Christmas is You or Nativity 1 and 2 is what I imagine being asked to pick a favourite child is like. You just can't choose. So to be clear, non of these are in any particular order. 

I reckon I started listening to Christmas music about mid November and we are still working through our list of Christmas films, there's only two weeks left! 

There are so many out there but I definitely have my favourites. 

Picture the scenes- sitting by the lit, decorated christmas tree, mince pie about to be eaten, a roast in the oven, wrapping presents and The Holiday is on the tv. Perfect. 

Top ten Christmas songs: 

1. Step into christmas- Elton John

2. Last Christmas- Wham! 

3. All I want for christmas is you- Mariah Carey

4. Christmas lights- Coldplay

5. Do they know it's christmas? -Band Aid

6. Driving home for Christmas- Chris Rea

7. One more sleep- Leona Lewis

8. Christmas (baby please come home) -Michael Buble

9. Fairy Tale of New York- The Pogues

10. Christmas Wrapping- The Waitresses

If I could have an 11th, it would definitely be 'Christmas Tree Farm' by Taylor Swift. 

Top ten Christmas films:

1. Nativity 1

I can watch this so many times and I will never get bored of it. Mr Poppy (and bob) is my hero. 

2. Home Alone

I love it but I also question the family, every single time. Poor Kevin! And every time I watch it, I always search up Macaulay Culkin because I still can't believe he's how old he is.

3. The Holiday

Jude Law fan. 

4. Nativity 2 Danger in the Manger

And a David Tennant fan. 

5. National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation

Stressful to watch but who doesn't love a bit of Christmas chaos?

6. Last Christmas

If you've seen this one, you'll know what I mean when I say it's sad but wonderful all at the same time. I'm obsessed with Emilia Clarke as Kate in this...and her leopard print coat. 

7. The Christmas Chronicals

8. Miracle on 34th Street

9. Love Actually

The ending is my favourite! A Richard Curtis classic. 

10. Disney's A Christmas Carol

I did this book for my English GCSE so we watched this film in class a lot, I love it! 

What's your favourite Christmas song or film? 

Bethan xx